Monday, January 31, 2011


My surgery is scheduled for Wednesday of this week. I don't know what time yet, I have to wait til tomorrow to know that. And, of course, there's another CRAZY winter storm coming our way!  I am freaking out about all the snow/ice/freezing rain that we are going to have to drive through just to get me to the hospital for the surgery! I am thinking that the normal twenty minute drive will take at least twice that Wednesday morning. I mean, seriously?!? It couldn't have waited til Thursday?!?

Saturday, January 29, 2011

I'd Rather Be a Mom

I was cleaning some today in preparation for the visitors I may get after my surgery this Wednesday. Some of my fantastic friends will be bringing us dinner to help out T while I am down and out. So I felt the need to clean. Otherwise my house is usually a wreck!

I have come to realize that cleaning takes energy.  And when energy is at a prime I need to use it carefully.  Much of my energy day to day is used on menial things as it is. Grocery shopping, errands, taking L to preschool, etc. On most days I would rather spend my energy doing fun things with my daughter rather then cleaning the house. I'd rather have fun in the snow, bake something yummy in the kitchen, or go on some fun outing with our friends. Another words, I'd prefer to spend my energy on being a Mom rather then cleaning my house.

So unless you are willing to come clean for me you'll just have to turn a blind eye, when visiting my messy house, and enjoy the company! Or spend your time watching the yelling, rambunctious, four year old running around in her under ware. Which ever you choose!

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Baking Time

This morning L had me at up five twenty.  It was seriously not a good time to wake up when I am used to seven thirty! Fortunately, she managed to go back to sleep which allowed for me to do the same. Needless to say, I woke up feeling rather Blah.  Blah about my cereal choice, blah about the pj's I wanted to wear, and especially blah about having nothing to do today with L.

We figured we'd bake a little, hoping that might help lift my mood. It usually works.  And my Mom recently got us a little heart pie maker that L and I were itching to try. So, we turned on the music and danced around the kitchen to the tunes of Three Dog Night, The Beatles, and The Supremes.  And we sang along, at the top of our lungs to Good Morning Starshine and a few others. 

L liberally covered the kitchen and ourselves in flour. I think our dog even managed to get sprinkled since she insists on sitting just below us to catch any goodies that might fall. I mixed up two batches of pie dough from scratch.  L kept on snatching pieces, on the sly, when she thought I wasn't looking. She helped me roll out the dough with our rolling pin. I think her favorite part, however, was adding the cherry pie filling to the middle before I put a "top" on the pie. After all the work, cherry-spoon licking, and scrap eating we ended up with six pies. Surprisingly, we had leftover pie dough.  So we rolled out the extra and made our infamous roll-out cookies.  I call them infamous because some of our friends always ask for some when they have heard we've made them.  Then inevitably someone ends up complaining because they are too good and they've eaten too many! I guess that's a good problem to have!

We had a great time baking this morning.  The kind of time memories are made from. We've already sampled the cookies at lunchtime.  Now we just have to wait til after dinner before we can try out heart cherry pies. Mmmmm!

Wednesday, January 26, 2011


It's been snowing nearly all day here in Pennsylvania. The sidewalk and parking spots really needed to be shoveled.  Every time it snows I sit looking outside at the snow covered walk and feel guilty because I can't help shovel.  My body would be KILLING me for days if I did.  So T yells if I even look like I am thinking about picking up a shovel. I am worth more to everyone if I sit inside and watch him shovel.  Then at least I won't be layed up for a day on the couch looking longingly at my daughter playing My Little Pony on the floor.

Today L and I were watching my neighbor shovel her walk. L LOVES our neighbor "Miss L"!  So of course she had to avidly watch what she was doing....with commentary. After she had finished her walk "Miss L" started in on our walk. My daughter ran for the door to say hi. I went out to thank her for shoveling. While we were talking L got it into her head that she HAD to go out with "Miss L". While I was in the process of getting my daughter "suited up" another neighbor came over to help clean off the rest of our parking spot.

They managed to get all of our little sidewalk and parking spots cleaned off before T got home. Amazing!  I was so so so thankful that they did this, knowing that I was unable to. Having neighbors who care about you is just SO great.

Playing with her snowball maker.

I am sure they got a kick out of watching L play in the snow as well!

Monday, January 24, 2011


Here is the blog post I've been promising for days and days now!

Myself and three friends all took a trip to New York City recently. One of my friends was turning 29 (again) and we wanted to celebrate since she hasn't had the easiest roads to travel recently. We made a very loose game plan for what we wanted to see.  Surprisingly enough it went off with out a single hitch to worry about.  With the exception of almost dying a time or two.....or a cab.

For some reason we decided to take pictures of our feet whenever we remembered or were somewhere neat. None of us can remember what started the trend.
On 5th Ave.

The steps of Grand Central Station

Grand Central Station Market

The Rock Skating Rink

Top of the Rock.  That's my floating shoe in the middle. I wasn't going to spend 20 bucks to be scared stiff!

In the Egyptian exhibit at The Met.

The highlights to the trip were....

* Laughing about seeing our vehicle three stories off the ground on a car lift for the night.

* Seeing our fantastic hotel rooms. Beautiful!

* Having people take our pictures in Times Square.

* Exploring Toys R Us on Times Square.

* Being awestruck in Grand Central Station. You could just feel the history!

* Our mouths watering because of all the amazing food in Grand Central Station Market. (The chandeliere was amazing!

* Finding a thirty five dollars/ pound cheese!

* Nearly dying a dozen times each time we got into a new cab. I swear!

* Sitting in Rockefeller Center's lobby without a shoe for forty minutes while my friends borrowed it to go up on their skydeck trip.  I don't care! I was NOT going up there!

* An uber fancy, and yummy, dinner at Lobster City.

* Wicked....BEST musical on Broadway EVER!!!! I cried when it was done. From the experience and because it was SO fantabulous!

* I told a cabbie that he was the cutest one we'd had so far. (I think I made his night!) We all laughed about it for the rest of the cab trip.

* The amazingly beautiful architecture in New York.

* The hugest continental breakfast buffet that I have ever seen.

* Hunting down a sueveniere shop for a friend's coffee mug.  Only to find out that I could have bought one cheaper at any of the dozen Starbucks on every New York street corner.

* The Metropolitan Museum of Art.

* Running up the stairs of The Met singing the "Rocky Song" at the tops of my lungs.

* Getting yelled at in The Met for using my cell phone. Please!  They should have tried to tell my four year old, who missed her Mommy, to get off the phone "NOW!".

* My friend laying down on the floor of The Met next to a sarcophagus.

* Smelling some fantastic H&H bagels for half the ride home, being hungry, and not being able to find a fast food restaurant to stop at.

* Finding the world's smallest McDonald's in the corner of a strip mall in New Jersey.

* Baby girl's welcome home hug.

Toys R Us T-rex

Amazing Architecture

Awesome chandelier

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

And Still More Bleh...

I know I've been promising a NYC tale.  However, that's just not going to happen yet. 

L got the stomach flu.  And no sooner did she get better and my husband got it. We all managed to be healthy for all of two days and now I am down for the count again. I've come down with some more nastiness.

I was at the doctors last night with a 102.6 fever.  I was really dazed and barely able to sit up for the doctor to check me out. She guesses...yes just guesses... that I have tonsillitis.  I'm not sure how my horrible cough plays into that.

So needless to say I'll be gone for a few more days.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011


Sorry for the delay in my awesome New York City blog with fantastic pictures. It was side lined by the flu.  I woke up Monday with nausea and heartburn that radiated around to my back that hurt pretty bad. And to accompany that I hurt everywhere. Yesterday was a little better.  The nausea seemed to be gone by the end of the day to be replaced by a migraine.

Now this morning I was woken at four to my girlie saying her belly hurt.  Followed shortly after that by her throwing up in our bedroom trash can. (Guess what has now become her "puke bucket" for the rest of the day?) L took it like a champ when I told her she had to miss school.  But when I told her she had to miss bible club tonight she was just heart broken. Poor baby girl!  And to top it all off I also have my migraine still. It even hurts to blink at the moment!

So the two of us are burrowed under blankets on our couch watching movies.... for as long as we need to be.

Sunday, January 9, 2011


I just got back from my NYC trip.  It was AMAZING!!  And there is simply too much to write about right now. So you'll have to wait just a little longer for details and pics!

Now, I am going to sleep....really well!

Friday, January 7, 2011

Matt Redman - Blessed Be Your Name

I woke up wonderfully this morning.  It was the first morning in awhile that I've woken up with out my daughter's help.  And those of you with kids know how rarely that happens.  For some reason the song Blessed Be Your Name was running through my head.  I feel like it was a little gift from God after I started thinking about the meaning behind the song. And when I looked out my window there was a beautiful blanket of snow on the ground.  It was so peaceful looking.  I feel renewed in attitude and spirit this morning!

Wednesday, January 5, 2011


Please forgive the ramblings. I had many thoughts going through  my head and just needed to get them down in the hopes of getting them out of my head.

I was looking for something to watch for ten minutes til I had to leave to pick up my daughter from school this afternoon. Sixteen and Pregnant was on.  I SO should not have watched it! I should have known this with the mental and emotional issues that I have been dealing with because of my upcoming surgery. I've already been thinking about babies too much, with the tubal only a month away.  I think it's human nature to be contrary about things.  I know I won't be having another child so, of course, I start thinking about babies!

Watching Sixteen and Pregnant just makes things worse.  It's hard for me to know that there are people out there who are having babies and they don't even want them.  Some no more then babies themselves. They are fully capable of raising and loving their babies if they would choose to do so.  Even when they never wanted a child to begin with.  So how is it fair that there are people out there who would love kids unconditionally and can't have them?  I feel like I'm having a "it's just not fair temper tantrum".

*stomping foot*

I have so much more love for another baby.  I am just being responsible by not having another one.  Knowing that it would just not be the "better choice"; for my health, our wealth, and sanity. The biggest factor in that being my health, even though I would love another one. So why are there people out there being blessed with babies who don't even want them? I've asked myself that question before about a friend who was in the middle of adopting. And now again about myself.

So, for the moment, I am keeping my daughter in my thoughts.  I was blessed once already.  I need to remember that. Another solace is knowing that God has a plan for me. And I am sure He has someone else out there to share my love with.  OK, that could be taken the wrong way.  What I mean is that I am sure God has someone else out there in mind for me to "mother" in my lifetime, as well as L. I just have to keep in mind that I only know a small piece of what will happen to me in the span of my life. There could be so many reasons why God doesn't want me to have another child and those reasons may not show themselves for years.

For now I am enjoying re-watching baby videos of L.  We've had a fantastic ride with her so far with many more years to come!  Enjoy the video I uploaded of her doing her " dancing thing"!

Monday, January 3, 2011


Just found out my surgery date. Febraury second, I will be out of commission. I am happy that I don't have to wait too long but nervous because it's sooner then I was expecting! :oS

Sunday, January 2, 2011

"Seeing How Fast the Squirrels Would Swarm"

So my Baby Girl hasn't been quite right for the last few days.  She very obviously doesn't feel good judging by her behavior, clingy-ness, and whiney-ness. Poor girl. But there's not really anything blatantly wrong with her. Just a little itty bitty cough, which gets worse when she actually works up the energy to run around. Not much to write home about.

We were planning on going to church this morning.  But we knew there was a very clear line between wanting to go and actually being crazy enough to take a whiny, fidgety, girlie who doesn't feel well enough to "act right" in church. About an hour or two into the morning we quickly came to realize that staying home was not an option either.  One of the three of us would have ended out back, tied up with peanut butter smeared on their toes, just for the purpose of seeing how fast the squirrels would swarm. And it wasn't going to be T or I!

T quickly came up with a good plan for the sanity of us all.  And it even had a built in plan to guarantee that L didn't run around and make herself have a coughing fit. We went to see Yogi Bear this morning. And because my husband is a ginormous 3-D geek at the moment, we splurged!  The theater was empty with the exception of us, which was fantastic. The movie was pretty cute and funny. Afterwards we walked around the mall for a little bit.

By the time I got in the car I had realized that while we had gone to the movies to keep our sanity, I was leaving with out my energy.  I was completely drained. It was even taking energy for me to lift my arms, leaving me panting.  Seriously, not fun and highly frustrating. When I woke up this morning I thought I had my usual supply of energy for the day.  Apparently, I was w...r...o...n...g!  I laid down to rest, during L's nap time, in the hopes of getting some of my lost energy back.  I really only succeeded in tossing and turning.  Which in turn has left my body hurting now as well. I think I may have heard a little voice inside my head scream...."Happy New Year! Hope you enjoyed that movie 'cause now you're paying for it!"

Well... It was a good movie, made even better by my daughter's enjoyment of it.  I loved hearing the giggling from the movie antics. And L's laughter was pretty cute too! So, as I have said in many other posts about my adventures with my daughter....

It was worth it!