Sunday, September 30, 2012

Lazy Lacer

I just got new sneakers the other day. I wanted them now so I could break them in some before we walk around Disney next month.

I, have to say, that I am loving them so far!  I got them at our Reebok outlet store, on sale, which makes them even better. The RunTones are designed to help you burn more calories while you are running, thanks to the "balance pods" in the soles of the shoe. According to the Reebok website "The shoes have built-in balance pods that transfer air in response to your stride." Your body thinks it's walking on sand, but my feet feel as if I am walking on air. While this might make me work harder it makes my feet hurt so much less by the end of the day.

As soon as I got in the door, I tied up my shoes. And they have been that way ever since. I hate tying shoes, I just feel like that's an unnecessarily wasted thirty seconds of my day. So, I leave them tied. Do you keep yours tied or tie them again every time you put them on?

Saturday, September 29, 2012

Interesting Info

Photo Credit
 While talking with a new friend yesterday she asked me if I was planning on getting a GAC while in Disney World. Naturally, I was like... What???

She explained that if you go to guest relations at Disney that they can give you a Guest Assistant Card for your stay. It carries across all four parks and is good for your whole trip, for up to four of your other guests. It, apparently, is a lot easier to get if you have a note from your doctor, if you have an invisible illness like myself. (Which I had already obtained for my plane ride at the advice of another friend.) You have to specifically tell them what you need assistance with while in the park in regards to the rides. For instance, in my case, I would let them know that I cannot be in the sun/heat for long periods of time (think 45 minute ride wait). So I should be able to show my card to the ride attendants and be able to be accommodated in some way so I will still be able to get on the ride but not have to sacrifice my health or energy level to do so.

It will be interesting to see if this helps us. I don't think I will "flash" the card in every circumstance, just when I start to become drained from the heat and all the walking. I am invisioning this helping to prolong my energy levels throughout the whole week of the trip!

PS- I am sure you are probably all tired of hearing about Disney by this point. You only have two more short weeks to deal with my insanity. OK, maybe three (I'll be taking a blogging vacay the week I am there because it's all about the family that week!) if you count the week after I get back and blog about the trip. And in my defense, I felt like this was something that I just HAD to share just in case any of you are planning on taking a trip to Disney anytime in the future. (I know of at least one of you are!!)

PPS- Here was a helpful website that explains more about the GAC at Disney World.

Friday, September 28, 2012

Leaf Printing; Busy Baby, Resting Mommy

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Fall is coming! I can't wait for the leaves to turn colors! And I have the perfect craft to do with your kiddos. This is best for preschoolers and up. Though, I do admit to being crazy brave enough to try this with my two and a half year old, but had to finish it for her when she lost interest.

What you need...
Beautiful fall leaves (They need to be directly from the tree for the pigment, in them, to be "fresh")
A flat piece of wood (Something solid to bang a hammer against that you aren't worried about denting)
A hammer of any size
Paper or material

1. Lay the  piece of wood on a flat surface. (I used a sidewalk instead of wood, one time, and picked up the gritty cement pattern. So you can do that instead if you want something more edgy.)

2. Place the leaf down on the piece of wood and cover with the paper/material. Making sure that the "stem side" of the leaf is facing down, otherwise you'll be hammering the pigment into the wood instead. (You may want to tape the paper down if you are worried about it shifting.)

3. Let your kiddo hammer the paper and watch the pigment come through with every whack.

4. When you are done you'll have some sort of leaf design for your kiddos to delight at. Some of them may look a little abstract. Don't forget to peal the leaf off the back.

5. You may want to spray your finished work with some type of acrylic spray.

If you want to take this one step further you can use material. Then you can starch the material to make it stiff enough to hang. :o)

PS- If you want different instructions you can mosey over to Build/Make/Craft/Bake that has a similar project to check out!

Thursday, September 27, 2012


Can shopping count as exercise for the day? Because I have, seriously, been in eighteen stores today luggage and dress shopping. And I am exhausted now!!! Most of it was because I was trying to find a dress, for myself, for a work function of my husband's. That didn't work out so well. Instead I only came home with baggage to show for it.

But it sure is a cute baggage!!

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

CSA Wednesday

Jonathan Apples
Yummy Peppers
Fingerling Potatoes
Japanese Bunching Onions
Sugar Peas

I can't wait to try the applesauce! Yum!

Tuesday, September 25, 2012


You guys! I am SO stinkin' proud of myself right now!

L has soccer practice every Monday and Wednesday night. Usually there is another team sharing the field so the two teams end up scrimmaging each other half way through practice. Not so much last night! The girls ended up practicing by themselves until the coach rallied the parents to scrimmage with the team. This, of course, happened to be the night that my husband was on call and had to miss practice. And, naturally, L just HAD to have me play since most of the other parents were.

And so I played. I played hard. As in, I ran all over the field back and forth a zillion times. For forty five minutes. Fortunately, the girls and parents were split evenly because those girlies ran circles around us!

I am so so so super proud of myself for lasting for forty five minutes! Back in January before I lost all the weight that I have, and before I started exercising regularly, and before I started eating healthily there's no way that I would have even lasted ten minutes on that field! (Yes, run-on sentence so sue me!)

So, even though I am in a lot of pain. I mean. A lot! I still consider it a victory for myself. Can I get a "Yay me!"?!!?....

I'll take my bow now. Thank you, thank you. You guys are great! Try the veal!

Monday, September 24, 2012

Id Tag

Please forgive the photo quality! And, yes, I blurred out the last four digits of the numbers!

I am gearing up for our trip to Disney so I made an ID tag for L the other day. I wanted her to have something, on her person, that had our cell numbers on it for vacation. Just on the slightest chance that we would get separated. I saw id tattoos recently which gave me the idea to make an id for her. I wanted something that wouldn't wash off of her. It had to be something that we didn't have to worry about putting on her every morning. So I made a tag to slip on her sneaker shoe lace. We'll keep it on her shoe all week.

I grabbed a milk jug, cut it up into squares, used a hole punch to make holes for the laces, glued my printed phone number on it, and decoupaged over the whole thing to make it water proof. I did this all for FREE! (Even better!)

This way I have the added peace of mind while we're in Disney World!

Sunday, September 23, 2012


Yes, this does look like a scary halloween picture, but wait! It's just my insane bags under my eyes. My body decided to hurt, which in turn made me unable to sleep from from five o'clock on this morning.

Thank goodness I wear glass so they are semi-covered up!

Saturday, September 22, 2012

Fancy Pumpkins

I made the Halloween pumpkins a week or so ago. They turned out so sweet that I decided I had to make some for Thanksgiving as well. I didn't really have any appropriate material so I went digging in my clothing "scrap bag". I found some cute pants of L's that I loved her in. Unfortunately, the dang things kept on ripping and I was tired of sewing them up so much. So, I decided to recycle them into Thanksgiving pumpkins instead!

I snipped a leg off the pants and sewed myself up two adorable, "fancy" (as L calls them) pumpkins.
I think the beadwork, that was already on the material, looks great on the pumpkins. I love them!

Friday, September 21, 2012

Nature Suncatchers; Busy Baby Resting Mommy

This is a great time to try this craft with the leaves on the edge of changing colors. Use the leaves that turn a brilliant red, orange, and yellow for this project!

What you need...
Contact paper
Scissors (to be used by adult)
Things from nature

1. Cut out two pieces of contact paper in the same size and shape.  I usually cut out a circle or an oval.

2. Collect things from nature that your child finds.

3.  Add the "nature finds" to one of the pieces of contact paper.

4. Top with the other piece of contact paper.

I love to hand my daughter's up on a window so the light shines through them.

Thursday, September 20, 2012

Beep..Beep..Beep...Danger Will Robertson!

OK, this is one of those posts that I feel like I need to precede with a warning!

Now I bet you have a dozen different scenarios running through your head. So, here's the "disclaimer".

This post is rather personal. If you are a guy or someone who is squeamish about things having to do with the mysteries of lady-bits....Or if you are personally offended by silly nicknames for the your fun area down south (Because, really, writing the word "vagina" just gets old after awhile!!)....You may want to stop reading now!

Still here? Oki doki, I gave you a fair warning. ;o)

Autoimmune diseases seem to be the diseases that keep on giving. Lucky us, right?! There are so so so sooooo many different symptoms that an autoimmune disease might dish out any given day of the week. Let alone the different combinations that each individual with one specific type might encounter. Fortunately, for the chics there seems to be one (of several) that travel across the board through many of the autoimmune diseases. Can you hear the sarcasm dripping from that? Yeah, you could cut it with a knife right now! Anyway, if you haven't guessed as of yet, I am talking about the trouble we ladies have with yeast. Also, commonly known as Vaginitis. Ugh! Yeast, is a nasty little guy who likes to cause many different difficulties with our honey pots.

Yeast or Candidiasis is naturally occurring, in our vajay-jays on an every day basis. A certain amount of "good" yeast is a healthy thing. It becomes a problem when the "bad" yeast outnumber the "good" yeast. Which can cause itching, swelling, burning, discharge, as well as other symptoms. I don't think I have to tell anyone, who has had a yeast infection, exactly how uncomfortable they can be. And it's just one of those things that every chicky gets at least once in their lives.

Without going into too many details, I will say that I have been having a prolonged problem with yeast.(Which has, according to the doctor, caused me to have urinary problems as well as other issues.) Guess what? Apparently, I'm not a "normal" situation. I don't have an overabundance of yeast. In fact I am "dangerously" close to having a mundane amount of yeast. It appears as if my body has just decided to be super duper reactive to the yeast cells that I do have. So, in simple terms, my body is allergic to the yeast. Which still means that I need to cut down on the yeast in me. Can I just be normal please?!?

As in many other areas of an autoimmune disease, when dealing with yeast, it usually has a "hit or miss" treatment plan. Because of this I have been to see my gynocologist, Dr. M., pretty frequently lately. Every visit seems to end the same way. With the hope that the next treatment plan will help things somewhat. I am now taking three medications for this problem. One to treat each different facet of the cells, if I correctly understood what my doctor was telling me about the make-up of a yeast cell. And if that still doesn't work then I have yet another pill to add to my cocktail.

I guess we'll see how it goes! I'm just itching to try this new group of pills. OK, OK, that was a really bad joke made in poor taste. It was at my expense so I couldn't pass it up. Hardy-har-har-har

Below is a basic informational video (A yeast infection for dummies kind of thing) I found on youtube about yeast infections for those who have not had the pleasure of hearing about these before now.

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

CSA Wednesday

This weeks CSA....
Red Delicious Apples
Savoy Cabbage
Haricot Verts (Which is a form of green bean)
White Skin Potatoes
Italian Frying Peppers

And a patridge in a pear tree!

OK, not really. But it did bring with it rain, rain, and more rain. Which is why my photo, this week, is blurry and shadowy. I was more worried about the rain coming in my door at that very second. I'm not really sure why it decided, after raining all dang day, for it to come in my door then. Fear not, everything is under control! Ha!

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Call of the Wildman

My daughter's new obsession?  This guy in the video above. The show is Call of the Wildman. Wow!  My daughter is running around the house all day quoting the guy on this show! It's pretty comical!

Monday, September 17, 2012


Now that L is back in school full time I have found it to be a double edged sword. I am at home, with no kiddo to watch, and feeling like I need to do something. So I make myself busy with a thousand little things that I put off all summer and am now needing to do. I feel the need to do all of this because I am left feeling like I should "pull my weight" and contribute to the family, until I start getting called in for substitute work again. There's a dress to mend here, cleaning there, a little dusting thrown in, along with errands, gifts to make, rooms to organize, shopping to do, bathtubs to clean, etc. (I am hearing Cinderella's little mice in my head saying, "Mop the floor, fold the laundry, Cinderelli!")

Doing all of this leads me to become tired. Downright exhausted at times. Which causes me to lay down on the couch to rest and get some of my energy back. For a day or two, at times. That, in turn, makes me feel like I need to get up and start doing things around the house. It's a vicious cycle. A horrible, unending thing, that makes me feel manic.

Maybe when I had L, this summer, I made myself take it more easy than I thought? Hmmm....

Sunday, September 16, 2012

Good Idea

I had a dozen ears of corn from our CSA to use up, the other day. So I decided to cook up half of it and then freeze it in a ziplock baggie for this winter. We will love that "fresh" corn when we have no fresh produce on hand! I swear I am going to go through withdrawal!

The thing I do not like about that job is actually take the corn off of the cob. I just don't have the patience to store one of those special little tools, that separate the corn and cob, in my little kitchen. not when I will only use it six times a year. Lucky for me, I found something else that worked just as well! I pulled an old college shotglass that has just been collecting dust, of my husband's, out of my cabinet and plunked the corn into it. It managed to hold up the corn perfectly! There was no slippage with the corn. I was able to cut straight down the cob and then cut the little bit off the other end once I was done. Yay!

Saturday, September 15, 2012

Bubble Tray; Busy Baby Resting Mommy

I slacked again. Completely forgot to write up a BBRM post for Friday, which I usually do. So here it is today!

What you need...
Cookie sheet
Liquid dish soap

1. Coat a cookie sheet with a thin layer of liquid dish soap. (So the bubbles don't pop once they hit the tray.)

2. Blow bubbles onto the tray and let your kiddos have fun!

When they are done you can easily wash the tray.

Friday, September 14, 2012

Woof Woof

I couldn't help but take a photo of my sweet doggy girl. She is crazy-off-the-wall-adorable when she lays like that with her leg hanging off the couch!

I could swear she is sneering at me, in this picture, for picking up my phone and snapping her photo!

And just because she didn't want to be looked over. Here's a picture of my sleepy little pom-pom sitting in the sun, which is her favorite place to be. (Beside on my lap licking me.) I swear she should have been a cat!

Thursday, September 13, 2012

Bedside Manner

My mom had another Orencia treatment, at the cancer center, the other day. She has one every month that I take her to. She hates it. Not the treatment, though she dislikes how they make her feel the first day or so, but the fact that she has to rely on me to take care of her. Me? I love the opportunity to take care of her for a change, since she's been taking care of me my whole life.

We usually encounter a different nurse every time we go. This trip made me think, "So, apparently, bedside manner is optional in nursing today.".  Now, don't get me wrong, I have met some amazing nurses. And I could never ever do their jobs because I just don't have that type of brain anymore to keep all those things straight. It truly takes a special kind of person to do what they do. However, being a chronic patient myself I have learned that sometimes attitude and a little compassion can make all the difference to a patient. Especially patients who are dealing with the type of serious diseases and chronic illnesses that land them in the cancer wing of a hospital.

As my mom and I sat, watching her medicine drip into her IV, we couldn't help but overhear a conversation that was presumably had with a cancer patient. In which the nurse basically told the patient, who was there for her first chemo treatment, that she should "give up now on the thought of keeping her hair through her treatment process. Because she has seen patient after patient, on that specific chemo drug, come in determined to keep their hair and they all failed. It was inevitable that she would loose her hair in the weeks to come and that she should say goodbye to it all now while she still had it."

Hearing this comment come from this nurse made me want to go hug the patient immediately. I didn't actually get to see how old the lady was. But, really, does it matter what age you are while being faced with the thought of loosing your hair? Something that makes up so much of our physical identities? Would anyone, no matter the age, be OK with hearing this? Especially from someone who is supposed to be compassionate about their struggles with cancer? While I understand the nurse may have felt the need to prepare this lady I think there could have been a much better way to bring the subject up.

I could not believe that I actually heard this and it has bothered me all day. I wish I could find that patient and send her a "smile-you'll-be-beautiful-anyway-care-package".

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

CSA Wednesday

This weeks CSA had...
Golden Delicious Apples
President Plums
Red Onion
Pimento Peppers
Swiss Chard
San Marzano Tomatoes

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Good For Her!

Diem Brown, who was on MTV's Real World Show, has been diagnosed with ovarian cancer. For the second time. This time she's decided to blog about her journey for People Magazine. She hopes to help others who are/will be going through the same journey. In a recent blog post she wrote...

"My girlfriend with AS shared this amazing story that made me dissect and ponder the way our society treats "invisible" illnesses. She shared her annoyance about someone's Facebook status update complaining about a particular handicapped spot occupant at the gym. The post basically said that if a person is going to gym then she/he must not be that handicapped. And here's where our society has shown poor judgment.

A person emerging from his or her car parked in a handicapped spot may seem completely healthy and completely "normal" walking towards the gym. But what's lying beneath the surface?

Maybe this person is dealing with an autoimmune disease or some other ailment that is unseen. Maybe this person has cancer but is currently undergoing a type of chemo treatment that doesn't cause hair loss. Whatever the reason, this person is parking in a handicapped spot at the gym, so why must our initial reaction be to judge the severity of his or her illness?

Why not applaud someone who is handicapped making an effort to fight the hand that has been dealt to him or her? Judgment is such a nasty vehicle, but admittedly, we all have been in the driver's seat of the judgment car at one point or another."

While I am saddened that she has to go through such an awful thing not once but twice in her young life, I am thrilled that she's taking the time to blog so she can help others. I say, "Good for her!", that she is willing to bring invisible illness up and use her celebrity status to an advantage such as this!

You can read the full blog post here.

Monday, September 10, 2012

More L ism's

It's about that time again.... for more quotes from my girly!

"Mama, you sell like Alwa (her lovey) and home!"

"You do what you do and you don't get upset."

"Hey! I remember the the ice cream man has a song! You can't trick me!"

"Goodnight my star. The star of my life!"

Songs of life...

"Oh families,
when you're washing your hair,
it's fun to get bare!"

"...On a Saturday night it's time to fight a bear!"

Conversations with L...

Me: L you are so silly!
L: You borned me that way!
Me: how did I do that?
L: You are silly so you borned a silly kid!

Me: I'm so proud of everything you've done this year L!
L: Stop. You're making me blush! Wait, no, you can keep going the blush complements my outfit!

Sunday, September 9, 2012


So my whole put-off-cleaning-because-I-wanted-to-use-my-energy-to-do-fun-things-with-my-daughter-this-summer-theory really didn't work too well for me. Now I have an insanely dirty house and still have limited energy to actually clean. I should have either picked exercise or cleaning the bathroom. Doing both has left me shaky on the couch.
My dream would be to have a cleaning lady. But they are so expensive usually. (Which I get. I do. I have some family in that field who support their families that way.) What I really need to find is someone to come clean my house, every week or so, who will do it just for the fun of it! Ha! Like that would happen?!

Anyway, I am thanking God, today, for a husband who is so understanding and supportive of my health issues! Family and friends can make all the difference in living with illness.

Saturday, September 8, 2012

Space Pudding.. Busy Baby; Resting Mommy

Here's a fun one to try!

What you need...
Box of pudding and all that entails ie; milk and fridge to let the pudding set
Sandwich bag
Scissors (used by an adult)

1. Make the pudding according to the boxes directions.

2. Once the pudding is set, spoon some into a sandwich bag.

3. Cut one of the bottom corners off the bag and let your child squeeze the pudding into their mouth. Just like astronauts do!

Friday, September 7, 2012

A Letter

Dear Sjogren's Syndrome,

I sat on my couch almost all day long, yesterday! And yet, I still find myself exhausted. Why do you need to be so bothersome? I am quite tempted to behave below my age level and call you a "Stupid Head"!

Please leave me alone today as I have two. Count them, TWO baking projects to get done for this weekend. And I don't care to see you show your ugly face around here while I try to get it accomplished. A double batch of apple crisp and cake balls don't make themselves after all!

Go away!

Yours most disagreeably,

PS- I have much more to say to you but haven't the energy to say it. So, SHOO!

PPS- Now, look what you've done! You manage to make me forget to post a Busy baby; resting mommy post! I guess I shall have to save it for tomorrow.

Thursday, September 6, 2012


Last year I started working for the local school district that my daughter is in. I am a substitute teachers aide there. It's a good job as it allows me to still go to my doctor appointments, work, help others, and be able to tell them I can't work when I am having a bad Sjogren's day. I had a lot of fun doing it and have been looking forward to working this school year. It was challenging at times with my energy levels. I was only able to cover for certain aides because some of the classrooms would be taxing for me to be in. It seemed to work out pretty well though.

This morning I got my first call to come in and substitute only to find out that I couldn't take it. It was an all-day job in a room that would have been too much for me. I would have collapsed by the end of the day from all the things I would have been doing throughout the day.

Now? Now, I feel guilty about having to pass up the job. I feel like a failure this morning. I hate all the different types of guilt that can be associated with my health problems, no matter how irrational some of it may be. Ugh!

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

CSA Wednesday

Oh my!

This corn has been AMAZING so far! I am using some of these apples for an apple crisp. Yum!

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

A Reminder

I ran across this blog post of mine from August of 2010. It came up in my blog stats as having been a post that has gotten a lot of reads lately. I think it may have been God sending me a little reminder that I need to keep things in prospective in my life. So I felt like sharing this again because the message is so great.  I hope you enjoy it!

Out of the Mouth of Babes...

A conversation that I had with my daughter tonight, about the movie Shrek, turned into a life lesson for her AND myself!

L... Mommy, Fiona isn't very beautiful as an Ogre.
Me... Maybe she is beautiful inside.
L... Where inside?
Me... Her heart might be beautiful.
L... Is it decorated with love?

Firstly, I say....How sweet is she?!? Obviously we are trying to instill a belief in our daughter that just because a person might not look beautiful on the outside doesn't mean that they aren't on the inside. It's pretty much something every parent hopes that their kid "gets" sooner rather than later in life. 

I could bring up my Grandma as a "case subject".  L calls her "The Mama" to differentiate between her Grandma, and both of my Grandmas. What can I say? She's very very loved. Good thing! Anyway, my Grandma can give some deadly looks without ever knowing that she has. She still wears curlers to bed to curl her hair from "back in the day". If she finds sneakers that she likes at yard sales and they are too tight, no problem, she just cuts the tips of the sneakers off.  Then jauntily walks around with her toes poking out. My Grandma has been known to... wear polka dots with stripes, buy baby blue leisure suits, match hot pink and mint green, and wear toilet paper doily covers as hats. All this having been done while she was completely totally unexplainably sane. Seriously, could I make this up?!?

But.....She has the biggest most beautiful heart I may ever have the privilege to know! I have spent hours in her basement slathering on shaving cream, Ben Gay ointment, and baby powder into her legs in an effort to "heal" her, while she studiously read. That was during my I-want-to-be-a-nurse-when-I-grow-up phase. My cousins and I have gone on countless treasure hunts and had many auctions at her house for the holidays. I was allowed to explore her attic and basement for hours at a time, letting my imagination run wild. She has donated her money and countless hours to various causes that she felt deeply about. She is the most Godly woman I know and her heart is truly pure.  I could go on for hours if we had the time.

L is too young to appreciate my Grandma's example as of yet. I am  assuming that my Mom will be around for many years to carry on my Grandma's fantastic example of "Grandma-hood" for L. So for now I kept the lesson I could teach her as simple as possible. 

After thinking about this all later I came to realize that I could quite possibly admit to being a little hypocritical about this. I have gained a few pounds in the last year.  Sometimes my ankle cracks when I walk.  My hands and feet swell. I unconsciously groan as I get up from the couch at times. And I don't always have the energy to care enough to dress semi-well if I am staying in all day with L. So knowing all this there are times that I can get drawn into feeling wholly un-beautiful.  Who could blame a person for this?

I've realized that I shouldn't let myself fall into this thought.  Because even if I have big black and blue bags under my eyes and sausage heart is still "decorated with love".  Love for my God, family and friends.  Love for the simple things in life.  And more love than I know what to do with coming back at me from my family and friends. My daughter being the biggest most beautiful conduit of all.

How can anyone feel ugly once they've thought about all the love their hearts are decorated with?!?

Monday, September 3, 2012


I saw some adorable vintage, material, pumpkins on Pinterest the other day. I loved them so much that I had to make my own! And I love mine even more!! I cannot wait to use these cute little "blackbird" pumpkins at Halloween. And I think I may make two more in a more fall-ish color to use with the plaid one at Thanksgiving time, since they were so easy to make. Yay!

Can you tell I'm ready for fall?!?

Sunday, September 2, 2012

I Need to Teach Her

My husband and I were talking the other night and I felt like I needed to share part of the conversation with you.

"...For me, using an electric cart at a store isn't about being weak and showing weakness. It's about being strong and humbling myself enough to accept help when I need it, (Whether it be an electric cart or my hubster buying dinner simply because I don't have the energy to make it.) even if I don't really want it. Sometimes being strong is about admitting that you need help."

And this is something I need to teach my daughter.

Saturday, September 1, 2012

Heshey Park Tired!

We had a great day at the park yesterday. The forecast called for 94 degrees! Yuck! It seemed like that might have scared some people off. We were able to pretty much walk on any rides that we wanted. It was fantastic! Now we are Hershey Park tired!!